After Christmas Blahs

So the holiday is over, and I'm feeling much better. Still having the pregnancy "have to eat" issue, but it's better than it was last week. I'm now officially 12 weeks, which means, I've passed the first 3 months, and overcame the early miscarriage fright. This is a load off my mind.

Ted is extremely happy about this baby. I've never seen him so...glowing? Is that the right word? We went to a christmas part this past Friday, and just to see him talking about it, you can watch the expression on his face change. He's so at peace with it, and so happy to be adding a new member to our family. I believe while we're both a bit frightenened at the thought of handling 3 instead of 2 (which we've gotten pretty good at mind you), he's definitely more settled on being okay with it than I am. At least at this point. I think that will even out over time.

Got some bad news about Aunt Tara's father this weekend. He passed away on Christmas night. 2005 has definitely not been the best of years. Our thoughts are with you Aunt Tara. I know what you're feeling.

This is also our first Christmas without Pappy. I was doing alright with it until Steven made a comment about going to see him again, and I just couldn't get though it without tears. Glad Ted was there to field the answers. Holidays will be especially hard for the next few years, we all remember how much Pappy loved Christmas with the boys. They miss Pappy too, very much.